Since our last date Jesse and I had kept in contact with countless call and texts keeping our connection living and breathing in between all of our fun dates. Jesse asked me where I thought I'd like to go and eat. I suggested the Derby Club because I'd been there before with a friend and I remember really liking it but I hadn't been back there. It seemed like a nice place to have a date. I was really embarrassed when we met there and the restaurant section was permanently closed because I'd suggested it. In its place was slot machines and gambling. So we left and decided to drive downtown to find a place to eat. He was going to drive us. I remember already having a judgmental moment went I first saw his car at choir. Telling me friend Angel, "That can't be him," driving up with the front end caved in on one side. Then I realized that it was him. I then had to change reframe my thoughts. "Remember when you drove around your Pathfinder with the side caved in for a year cuz you were waiting to give it to Cloe for a kid car before you bought a new one" I was quickly humbled by that and him reminding me about the house fire that he had. That is what had happened to the front end. It wasn't crashed, it was melted. That was really interesting to me. Later I also found out he was going to be giving it to his son when he started driving further humbling my thoughts. I was once again reminded to humble myself when I got into his car to drive to another location for dinner. He opened the door for me and apologized for the mess on the passenger side floor. It did look like the garbage can. He obviously wasn't planning on driving me. I have a way of asking for what I want and getting it ;) Sometimes. I gave him the benefit of the doubt.

We went to a Mexican restaurant downtown called Don Juans instead. The first official date nerves were running as I was trying to figure out how to stand by him and look at him. Meeting his eyes calmed my body. I felt peaceful with him. I didn't feel like I needed to be someone other than me. My usual perusing of the menu with the thoughtful choosing of a dish that would create the least amount of mess wasn't there. I chose what I wanted and Jesse wanted Fajitas too so we shared a toppings plate. I do remember being consious of the amount of toppings I took to make sure he had enough of what he wanted. Mostly meat. :) I told him that he was going to get the real me because I'd picked something messy to eat for dinner. He said he didn't mind. I figured it was better that he see the messy me from the beginning. You know the guacamole pooling in the corner of my lips and the meat juice dripping from the tortilla to the plate. Luckily it missed my clothes this time.

He told me about his tattoos at dinner. He has an A on his wedding finger. Which of course I knew what that was. Not thrilled about it but also understanding how those things don't just wash off I wasn't going to make it a big deal. He also has a tattoo of a star wars guy lego man on his left arm. It's a colored tattoo and he said he likes Star Wars and Legos so it worked. I think this was the night that he must have also told me that it was a couples tattoo and that his ex wife has the Princess Lea on her arm, but I missed that part. I did catch the part when he told me that he would maybe at a ChuBacka or something to it. I wasn't sure why at the time. Later on another date maybe a month later. I remember sitting on my couch and he was telling me about the tattoo again. We were much closer then and my feelings of jealousy and inadequisies snuck in. Jesse making me feel safe to share my feelings. I simply cried and cried and he listened and reassured me as he help my in his arms Koala bear style. I felt the most loved and peaceful, seen and safe than I remember ever feeling. So while I don't like the couples tattoos. I'm glad that Jesse is a man who understands emotions and cares about mine. I didn't quite know that yet at Don Juans but I would be quickly learning that. I let the tattoo nerves subside me and we were able to have nice conversation.

Then we headed to Putt Putt golf by the river. the night was cool and dark. It also felt so peaceful. Jesse was so good about opening doors for me and others, paying for dates, and making me feel like the only girl there. Which to be fair I was close to one of the only girls at Putt Putt that night. We got out balls and clubs. I was green and Jesse was red. Our favorite colors. Thank goodness dating was the way that we found about each others favorites. Endless texting of favorites is not my favorite way to get to know someone. Once the one group in front of us finished golfing we were the only ones on the course. I remember complimenting Jesse's Tshirt and learning about what diesel power is. I remember slight touches of the arms as we played through the first half of holes. Flirting and smiling and laughing with each other. Jesse has the score card and he let me have less strokes on most of the holes. That made me smile too.

When we had gotten through about half of the holes. we had both hit our balls onto the course and I walked up the small hill towards him. He smiled at me. Pulled me in close. I looked into his eyes and he moved his face closer to me and put his hand on the side of my chin and he kissed me. Our first kiss. It was so magical and peaceful. My heart filled and peace filled my body. I felt safe and special in that moment. I'm so happy that he didn't have our first kiss be at choir in front of Angel. Even though I knew that I wanted a kiss that night. We were interrupted soon after by the workers running towards us and asking if we wanted food because they were going to shut down that part. We didn't. We finished golfing and moved our way towards the car.

Jesse propped himself up next to the car door on my side and we had more hugs and kisses. He knew I liked ice cream so he then asked me to go to ice cream at bliss and I was up for it!

He dropped me back off at my car at the end of the night. He walked me to my car and made sure I got off safely. He was definitely making a good first impression and I liked him. A lot. However, I've been on good first dates before that don't work out. So, It was good for now. :)